I Guess I Need To Post An Update

Well this is probably the hardest blog posting I have ever written. The last several weeks have been an emotional roller coaster for me and my family. On 2-18-09 I went back for another ultrasound only to discover Twin A no longer had a heartbeat and all that remained of Twin B was a sac filled with blood (two sacs not one as they originally reported). I called my new OB who would have handled the pregnancy and delivery to tell them of the US and faxed them the report. My appointment was moved up to 2-23-09.

I met the doctor that following Monday and apparently infection had started to set in. Not enough time to do a hysterectomy like I wanted and a D&C was scheduled for the following day. The surgery did not go that well and I lost a lot of blood and had to be admitted. The doctor was afraid that I would require and emergency hysterectomy the following day if the bleeding did not stop. I was placed on pitocin which all moms know hurts like hell but it did it’s job and stopped the bleeding by way of contracting my uterus. Needless to say it was a long and painful night.

According to the doctor the placenta was embedded way more than he would have anticipated this early in the pregnancy. Had I gone to term I may not have survived. I am so fulled of mixed emotions. I am very sad at the death of both babies but in another way glad I did not have to make the decision to terminate due to my risks as it is something I don’t think I could have done. However the nightmare continues with infection. I went for my post op follow up this past friday only to discover that I have an infection which the doctor warned me could happen. Now I am on two nasty antibiotics along with the high dose of iron that is already making me ill!

Now the next stage of this battle is to decide what to do (trying to be optimistic that the antibiotics will stop the infection). This surgery brought with it a lot of complications that makes the next steps a little frightening. Not only did I have bleeding issues but breathing as well. I have ITP and anemia, neither are at any alarming rates but present reasons to be concerned. Following surgery I have a difficult time getting my Blood Oxy rate back up which caused me to be admitted now twice after routine outpatient surgery. The Essure procedure seemed to be like a good option until I discussed it with my doctor. Apparently insurance may only cover a small portion of the procedure and not the follow up testing which is apparently not very pleasant to insure the procedure took. I will talk to my doctor more about other options after he is sure the infection has cleared, which is his main concern at the moment.

These last several weeks do not feel real to me. I am extremely tired, emotionally drained and very depressed. Nobody should ever go through what I have. I wish I would have taken charge of my medical care and instead of trusting my doctor. I should have researched it as I would have if it was my children’s health at issue. Had I known what I do now I would have insisted the doctor do a hysterectomy as I wanted or at least a traditional tubal along with the ablation. Just because someone is a doctor does not mean they know what they are doing or keeping up with the latest information. Had this doctor been keeping up with the news regarding the procedure he was peddling he would have known to do a tubal at the same time he was looking for endometriosis! Yes there are many emotions I am dealing with at the moment. Depression, grieving, anger, hurt and scared. I hope women who are considering ablation find postings and can make sure their doctors know what they are doing. I also hope that women who have had the procedure read this posting before this happens to them.